god i miss my son so bad i wish i could bring him back with all my heart and soul i wish i could give my soul up to just bring him back, i know this is my fault no matter how many times i tell myself that it wasn't my fault i know that it is, if i didn't say that FUCKING COMMAND IT WOULD HAVE BEEN FINE but nooooo i just had to do it, i just had to send that command AND GET MY FUCKING SON KILLED THE DAY AFTER I HAD PROMISED THAT I WOULD PROTECT HIM i cannot stand myself sometimes i wish i could just go back in time and stop myself from doing that. shit luna is asking me things im just gonna wrap this up with a im sorry and leave it at that